I have been working really hard on my online presence and strategy and am proud of my accomplishments. I’m creating content consistently and my self-awareness is at an all-time high. My full-time job of over 8 years is ending and in one month I will have no income. I have 2–3 months, maybe 4 of savings to hold me over while I figure it out.
I met with a lawyer yesterday about filing for an LLC and I have an appointment with an accountant on Monday. The lawyer asked me if I was ready to work for myself. I felt the question in my stomach. In all honesty, I’m a #2 guy. I do my best work for #1 people. You know, the people who are ready to work for themselves because they know how to find #2’s who walk the line of entrepreneur and employee.
Am I ready to work for myself? I honestly don’t know as the more self-aware I become the more truthful I am about this question. I come out of the gates full steam ahead, but often lose interest in my endeavors. I think I lose interest in myself. I would rather help someone else achieve their dreams and goals than help myself. The forever-loyal #2.Why is that? It sounds noble and selfless, but it is really just self-doubt in disguise. I am not afraid of failing. I am afraid of succeeding.
I am practical and realistic. I have an uphill climb to make it on my own. I have the skills and talents and work ethic, but I need more windex for my mirror. I need to be more self-respectful and believe that I am worthy of success. I need to love what I see looking back at me and be more grateful and less critical.
Necessity is the mother of taking chances — Mark Twain
Is Mike Murphy, LLC ready? I am not sure what is going to happen, but I do know that working for anyone else is not an option right now. I’m either going to the poor house or making a dent. I’m betting on the latter.
The lawyer told me his fee was $350 to set everything up and that I could take as long as I needed to think about whether starting my own company was right for me as working from home is hard and it requires discipline and self-control and hard work, etc.
I smiled. I thanked him. I handed him my credit card.