One is the Loneliest Number
I pride myself on being a one man band. I am the stereotypical introvert where I can turn it on if I need to, but left to my own devices I prefer to be alone. I have always had a very small circle of friends and family that I am fiercely loyal and protective of, and that is all I need. I like my independence and my aloneness, but I’m struggling with starting a business and working for myself. Two of my greatest strengths are responsibility and loyalty, which translates to I’m a great worker or #2 guy. I can move mountains for others (do all the work) and never complain or ask for anything. I’m having trouble moving a paperclip working for myself. I’ve just strapped in to the entrepreneur rollercoaster and it is going to take everything I have to succeed because I thrive on accountability to others. I have not found a way to hold myself accountable to me. My accountability issue has a lot to do with my self-doubt and lack of self-worth. I fear success. I fear happiness. How stupid is that? There are parts of me that are fearless and confident and other parts that are really self-critical and deprecating. I know my mind is strong I have a lot to offer, but my self-awareness is teaching me that as much as I like being alone, it is not going to help me move forward. I need accompanists and a band behind me that can push me and motivate me to deliver my best performance day after day.
The first step is acknowledging that I need help. I need to surround myself with motivated people. I need accountability if I have a chance at succeeding on my own. I am not looking for employees or assistants, I am looking for my tribe and community. By surrounding myself with like-minded people who are getting things done, I know I will push myself to keep up. I could probably also use a coach, but the budget is tight. I know the investment is worth it, but I have to be pragmatic.
I can do this, but not alone. Neil Young and Bob Dylan were two of my favorite one man bands, but they were rarely onstage alone.
Wanna join my band?